Wednesday, April 1, 2009
I have written in the previous chapters, how my mother was encouraging me in my various activities such as writing stories and composing poems etc. She encouraged me to bring out handwritten magazine in our village and she was the guiding force in its presentation. She even used to suggest that how bold the titles should be, and what colour can be used for them.
After walking up and down four miles a day, you can understand, how tiresome it will be, to do even the home works and study the lessons. Yet, I used to find time for these extra curricular activities, only because of her encouragement.
Even before reaching High school i.e 9th standard, I started participating in public meetings, and staging dramas in school vacation days. My mother was everything to me and I started looking at her as God, and slowly my attachment to Gods and worshiping them was deteriorating.
This is the song I wrote when I was 20 years old about my mother. This was based on the song " yennamellam" rendered by T. M. Sounderrajan in "Maaman magal (?)" based on Sahaanaa Raagam.
In anupallavi, I have mentioned based on the myth that people with great virtue
( புண்ணியம்) will not have rebirth. The emphasis is on "Even after being born to you, if I have rebirth" means I will certainly not have a rebirth, after being your son. In spite of that, if there is a rebirth then let me be only your son again
தெய்வமெல்லாம் ஓர் உருவான அன்னையே
மெய்யெல்லாம் உருக அரி வணங்குகிறேன் - (தெய்வ)
இன்பமெல்லாம் துறந்து, துன்பமெல்லாம் ஏற்று
தியாகங்கள் புரிகின்றாய்: என் வாழ்வையே வகுக்கின்றாய்.
உனக்குப் பிறந்த பின்னும், எனக்கொரு பிறப்பிருந்தால்,
மறு பிறவியிலும் - அந்த, மறு பிறவியிலும்
உனக்கே நான் பிறந்திடவே - (தெய்வ)
கோயில் பல சென்று கோலமுடன் தொழுதாலும்
தெய்வம் தோன்றுமா? தேவருலகம் கிடைக்குமா?
கருங்கல்லின் உருவில்தான் கடவுள் தெரியுமா?
நல்ல கலைஞனின் ஓவியந்தான் கருணை பொழியுமா?
சிரித்துப் பேசும் தெய்வம் நேரில்வரும்பொழுது
சேவிக்க ஊர் வேண்டுமா? வேறு சேவை செய்ய தோன்றுமா? (தெய்வ)
Once upon a time there was an island
Where all the feelings lived…...
One day there was a storm in the sea and the island was about to get drowned.
Every feeling was scared but love made a boat to escape. Every feeling
boarded the boat ,
Only feeling was left. Love got down to see who it was… it was Ego.
Love tried and tried but ego wasn’t moving also. The water was rising.
Every one asked love to leave him and come in the boat,
But love was made to love. At last all the feelings escape and love dies
with ego on the island….. Love dies because of EGO!
So Kill Ego and Save Love… One Message to our relation:- Arguments
wins the situations but loses the person. So when argue with loved ones,
remember that situations is never more important than your loved ones…...
Sometimes love is for a moment, sometimes love is for a lifetime.
Sometimes a moment is a lifetime.'
Buddha, one day, was in deep thought about the worldly activities and the ways of instilling goodness in human beings. One of his disciples approached him and said humbly " Oh my teacher ! While you are so much concerned about the world and others, why don't you look in to the welfare and needs of your own disciples also."
Buddha : "OK.. Tell me how I can help you"
Disciple : "Master! My attire is worn out and is beyond the decency to wear the same. Can I get a new one, please?"
Buddha found the robe indeed was in a bad condition and needed replacement. He asked the store keeper to give the disciple a new robe to wear on. The disciple thanked Buddha and retired to his room. A while later, he went to his disciple's place and asked him "Is your new attire comfortable? Do you need anything more ?"
Disciple : "Thank you my Master. The attire is indeed very comfortable. I need nothing more"
Buddha : "Having got the new one, what did you do with your old attire?"
Disciple : "I am using it as my bed spread"
Buddha : "Then.. hope you have disposed off your old bed spread"
Disciple : " No.. no.. master. I am using my old bedspread as my window curtain"
Buddha : " What about your old Curtain? "
Disciple : "Being used to handle hot utensils in the kitchen "
Buddha : "Oh.. I see.. Can you tell me what did they do with the old cloth they used in Kitchen "
Disciple : "They are being used to wash the floor. "
Buddha : " Then, the old rug being used to wash the floor...? "
Disciple: " Master, since they were torn off so much, we could not find any better use, but to use as a twig in the oil lamp, which is right now lit in your study room.... "
Buddha smiled in contentment and left for his room.
If not to this degree of utilization, can we at least attempt to find the best use of all our resources at home and in office?
..... Again I have to go to office
Ohh, this is me... I shouted having a glance on my snap in today's news
But what the HELL it is doing in the death column??
One sec... Let me think, last night when I was going to bed I had a severe
pain in my chest, but I don't remember anything after that, I think I had a
Its morning now, ohh..... It's already 10:00 AM, where is my coffee?
I will be late for office and my boss will get a chance to irritate me.
Where is everyone...? ?? I screamed.
"I think there is a crowed outside my room, let me check." I said to
So many people..... Not all of them crying...
But why some of them crying...
WHAT IS THIS??? I m laying there on the floor...
"I AM HERE" ... I shouted!!! No one listen.
"LOOK I AM NOT DEAD" ... I screamed once again!!! No one is interested in
They all were looking me on the bed.
I went back to my bed room.
"Am I dead??" I asked myself.
Where is my wife, my children, my mom-DAD, my friends?
I found them in the next room, all of them were crying... still trying to
console each other.
My wife was crying... she was really looking sad.
My little kid was not sure what happened, but he was crying just because his
mom was sad.
How can I go without saying my kid that I really love him, I really do care
of him. ??
How can I go without saying my wife that she is really most beautiful and
most caring wife in this world..??
How can I go without telling my friends that without them perhaps I might have
done most of the wrong things in my life... thanks for being there always
when I need them... and sorry for not being there when they really need
I can see a person standing in the corner and trying to hide his tears...
Ohh... he was once my best friend, but a small misunderstanding made us
part, and we both have strong enough ego to keep us disconnect.
I went there.. And offered him my hand, "Dear friend... I just want to say
sorry for everything, we are still best friend, please forgive me."
No response from other side, what the hell?? He is still preserving his
ego, I am saying sorry... even then!!!
I really don't care for such people.
But sec.... it seems he is not able to see me!!!! He did not see my
My goodness... AM I REALLY DEAD???
I just sat down near ME; I was also feeling like crying...
"OHH ALMIGHTY!!!! PLEASE JUST GIVE ME FEW MORE DAYS..."
I just wasn't to make my wife, my parents; my friends realize that how much
I love them.
My wife entered in the room, she looks beautiful.
"YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL" I shouted.
She didn't hear my words, in fact she never heard these words because I never
said this to her.
"GOD!!!!" I screamed... a little more time plzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. .
One more chance please... to hug my child, , to say sorry to my friends for
everything I have not given to them, and thanks for still being in my
Then I looked up and cried!!!!
"GOD!!!! ONE MORE CHANCE PLEASE!!!!"
"You shouted in your sleep," said my wife as she gently woke me up. "Did
you have a nightmare?"
I was sleeping....
Ohh that was just a dream....
My wife was there... she can hear me...
This is the happiest moment of my life...
I hugged her and whispered... . "YOU ARE THE MOST BEAUTIFUL AND CARING WIFE IN
THIS UNIVERSE.... I REALLY LOVE YOU DEAR"
I can't understand the reason of the smile on her face with some tears in
her eyes, still I m happy.... :)
"THANK YOU GOD FOR THIS SECOND(!) CHANCE."
So, Now it's not late.. Forget your egos, past........ ..., and express
your love to others...... .... Be friendly.... ......... ..
Keep smiling and be happy for ever...